i just came out from a meeting and i am not sure if im upset, furious, sad, terkilan
maybe all.
i just foud out today that my top bos is not sure wht i am doing in the organization.
and worst, asks openly in a meeting.
bole?
i was so shocked, i fell silent, numb even, in my mind im visioning me running to him, knock him off his seat and scream my lungs out then biting his head off
(ally mcBeal scene ni, honest)
yes im angry and sad kut at the same time.
more so, before he asked openly. i was explaining how obvious what my job is. I felt so proud that i raised pertinent points, only to be shoot down, that top boss dont even know where my focus is.
damn it, i even keep raising my hand to give opinion about this area, and still u had to ask tht question.
im angry because in a lot of ways it made me look stupid. there i was raising inputs, points, pandangan and ure not sure wht my area is. Its as if i am buzy body-ing myself on other people issues. Kinda of like telling me shut it , this is not ure area.Yes im angry because he asked me in public
then i got sad. as t got me that maybe im that "invisible" in this area. this could be a result that my subordinates never emphasis my presence and responsibility in this area. which got me thinking, am i not that relevant/ important enough to be worth mentioning. Im the head unit for good sake!
as im blogging in my room. long lunch. hungry and still upset. had good coffee.
im feeling, calm. forgiving.
i should educate him more on what i do.
i am not the only officer he has, he's probably to occupied with tso many issues, i should really let this slide off.
people make mistakes, kan. Dengan tidak sengaja memalukan pegawainya sendiri
or on the twist of this, malukan diri sendiri for not knowing wht ure officers are doing.
ok calmer calmer.
oh demm the coffee is so good
i forgive u , stupidBongok top boss.
Lalalalalalalla
maybe all.
i just foud out today that my top bos is not sure wht i am doing in the organization.
and worst, asks openly in a meeting.
bole?
i was so shocked, i fell silent, numb even, in my mind im visioning me running to him, knock him off his seat and scream my lungs out then biting his head off
(ally mcBeal scene ni, honest)
yes im angry and sad kut at the same time.
more so, before he asked openly. i was explaining how obvious what my job is. I felt so proud that i raised pertinent points, only to be shoot down, that top boss dont even know where my focus is.
damn it, i even keep raising my hand to give opinion about this area, and still u had to ask tht question.
im angry because in a lot of ways it made me look stupid. there i was raising inputs, points, pandangan and ure not sure wht my area is. Its as if i am buzy body-ing myself on other people issues. Kinda of like telling me shut it , this is not ure area.Yes im angry because he asked me in public
then i got sad. as t got me that maybe im that "invisible" in this area. this could be a result that my subordinates never emphasis my presence and responsibility in this area. which got me thinking, am i not that relevant/ important enough to be worth mentioning. Im the head unit for good sake!
as im blogging in my room. long lunch. hungry and still upset. had good coffee.
im feeling, calm. forgiving.
i should educate him more on what i do.
i am not the only officer he has, he's probably to occupied with tso many issues, i should really let this slide off.
people make mistakes, kan. Dengan tidak sengaja memalukan pegawainya sendiri
or on the twist of this, malukan diri sendiri for not knowing wht ure officers are doing.
ok calmer calmer.
oh demm the coffee is so good
i forgive u , stupidBongok top boss.
Lalalalalalalla
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